Some of you know that I've been going through kind of a hard time these past few months. I think it actually started before I weaned Whitney, but that event really set things in motion. I have not been myself at all. I had terrible mood swings at any moment and the tiniest things would set me off. I had no motivation to do anything and getting out of the house seemed like a big ordeal I couldn't accomplish on my own. I had no idea what was going on and felt like the darkness would last forever.
About a month after this started, I went to a naturopath doctor in Provo. He prescribed sleep and supplements to help me start feeling better. And, it worked most of the time. I still had some mood swings and my motivation was still lacking. Then, almost 2 weeks ago, I went back for some further testing. They adjusted the dosing of supplements I was already taking and added a few more to the mix. The first week was still a little rough--but this past week has been AMAZING!
I seriously marvel every single day at how well I suddenly feel. I cleaned the house, ran errands like crazy, took the girls to the library, and am once again finding joy in the little things of motherhood. Every night I pray that this feeling will not go away because it feels so good to be back in this place! I finally feel like myself again--like I can take on the world--and like I have something of myself to offer once more. I cannot believe the night and day difference in me from even a month ago. I am so grateful for this amazing change. I live every day just incredibly thankful for the light again.
Isaac’s first football game of the year.
1 year ago
1 comment:
Amanda,
I hope you don't mind but I am trying to get caught up on you. I can't imagine what an ordeal that must have been for you. I have those days from time to time (I think all moms do) but how awful to not feel like yourself for so long! Hope you are continuing to feel better.
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