Do you ever have those days that you just feel like running away from life? Not really for a long time...but just for a little while?
Today is one of those days for me. I've already been a little stir crazy this week--and I want to take the girls for a walk, for the sole purpose of getting out of the house. But, we don't have a double stroller yet, so I take Kallie into the backyard and we play with her ball and with bubbles. And, even with that, I'm still feeling SO cooped up and ready to RUN. Of course, I never would. I love my kids and husband WAY too much to do that. But, the feeling still exsists.
After about a week and a half of not being able to use my room if Whitney was sleeping, which is a HUGE chunk of the day, I finally got tired of it and we moved her into Kallie's room yesterday. So far, things are going OK. The only problem is that Whitney woke up every hour to hour and a half last night. I didn't want her to wake Kallie up, so I'd sneak into the room and settle her back down, then go back to bed. Being tired today probably doesn't help the running away feeling.
Then, this morning, Kallie was getting into everything possible. Some days, I feel like I follow her around the house saying "Uh-oh!" and having her help me put away the things she's getting into. Or--she's frequently in time out because she chooses not to help clean up her messes. Today is one of those days.
For the moment, both girls are napping. I need to go shower, fold some laundry, eat some lunch, and do a few other minor things. I know that these days will be all too short--and in a few years, I will look back and wonder where the time went. But, just for today, I'm wondering if I will ever get to sleep until I want to wake up in the morning...if I will ever NOT have diapers to change...and if I will ever be able to get completely ready for the day, including showering and exercising, before it's time for bed again! Maybe someday.
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2 comments:
I swear you are my twin separated at birth. At lot of the things you say in your posts are exactly how I feel. I was just talking to Ryan about this feeling of wanting to run away sometimes... whenever I start to go crazy Ryan quickly realizes and lets me sleep in and lets me go shopping by myself, even if its not to buy anything but just to get "out"... ya know? I hope your day tomorrow goes much better than today!! Hang in there... you're NOT alone!!
I hear ya! I don't have those days anymore but after I lost Zachary I just wanted to run away to a place where there was so sadness, no responsibilites, etc...I just wanted to go to a beach in Hawaii and lay there and do nothing. But after some time that feeling goes away, thank goodness :) And then you're back to being SuperMom and feel like you can take on the world. Hang in there!
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