I have been learning lately that the most difficult things for us to do are sometimes the best.
As a SAHM, life can get rather mundane and boring really fast. It takes about 2 diapers within the first half-hour that you're awake to remind you that you're not only going to be doing this today, but you will go to bed that night, wake up tomorrow morning, and do it all over again...and again...and again. It seems like the mommy tasks never end. It's nice to have things to think about through the day other than diapers, Blue's Clues, and what you're fixing for the next meal.
For the past 2 1/2 years, I have had a message board where I keep up with several friends--and it was such a great support and distraction throughout my day. It really kept my life from getting too mundane and gave me other things to think about. I really love talking to the girls on there. They had diverse thoughts and opinions and I enjoyed honing my own opinions as a result of talking to them.
Then, one day last week, I started feeling like I was spending way too much time on the computer. I have to admit, I didn't listen to the feeling at first. I would still get on my board and end up spending an entire naptime reading and answering the topics. No matter how much I tried to tell myself I'd only be on for 15 minutes, it would inevitably turn into 1-2 hours of chatting with the girls. Finally, after spending yet another entire naptime on the internet, the feeling that I needed to focus on other things and use my time more effectively was so strong that I thought I was going to explode. So, I said "goodbye for now" to all of my friends and deleted my bookmark. I still have the link in my e-mail, but it's not as tempting to fall into my old habits as when the bookmark was still at the top of my Internet Favorites list.
For the most part, I think I've been really good about not being tempted to get back on. I see how much I can accomplish in a day now and love that I get so much done. On the other hand, I really do miss my friends. Reading about other moms' lives, in comparison to my own, made life a little more interesting. In all reality, it was really hard to leave my friends. But, I have realized in the past several days that it has been for the best. I don't know when and if I'm going to go back to my board again. I'm afraid that if I go back, I'll fall into my old habits and I don't want to do that again. But, I really want to at least keep in touch with my friends on the board. I guess we'll see what happens in the next few weeks...
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4 comments:
Sooooo true! I've been there. Especially with a new baby it's easy to get on there all the time. Funny huh? I'm proud of you!
Amanda, i've had the same feelings... i'm not as good as you though, b/c i can't leave the board... sometimes i do just not post for a few days to a week and i get more done and i feel better adn then i go back... its a cycle. I'm glad that you're doing what you feel you need to. We do miss you though and hope that eventually you will come back. If not we'll have to keep in contact through the blogs and let you know when there are "get-togethers" and whatnot!
Well hopefully you pop in every once in a while and say hi. We can help monitor you and tell you to get off if necessary. I miss you and hope you are doing well.
Jess
I just wanted to tell you hello. We miss you but we all understand what you are feeling. I hope we have a get together soon so I can see you! I am glad that you have the blog!
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